Spreading Yourself Too Thin? Yeah...Me Too

 Do you ever feel like you're spreading yourself too thin? Wish you could be in two or more places at once? Yeah, I know all of those feelings and some. Being a mother of two little girls, one five and the other one, it's quite a chore. I am a stay-at-home mom, and I struggle to keep it that way. I feel it's my job to watch over, teach and take care of my children. Hell, I feel guilty just letting grandma take them for one measly hour. I like staying home with my babies, playing games with them and teaching them everything I know.
 But the time has come, and we need extra income. I work for my websites, and get some pay from there, but it just isn't enough. So to top that off, I make sculptures and jewelry, and I knit and crochet hats and scarfs. Oh, and on top of that, I now babysit four or so times a week. I like making money, and I like being able to do it from the comfort of my home, but it's beginning to feel as if I am doing too much. I even went yesterday, and talked to my apartment manager about possibly cleaning the property daily and doing other odds and ends here and there for yet another job. Granted, this one wouldn't put money in my pocket, but it will decrease my rent, so it works out either way.
 I'm the type of person that won't say no to a good opportunity, even if I have a ton of stuff on my plate already. In the future, I may even possibly be in charge of a couple websites. Awesome sauce, more money for my family and bills, but that results in a stressed and tired Nightingale. But you know what, one must do what they have to do. That's our duty in life. Especially me being a mother, I have that instinct to go and do everything I can to ensure my family is okay financially and so on, even though I know I'm doing too much, and spreading myself way too thin.
 How many of you out there feel this way? You know you're doing way too much, but you keep on at it with a smile on your face even though you're beyond stressed and slowly losing your mind?
 And yes, I know, this is a gamer mommy blog, but sometimes I just want to talk about the day to day struggles that I myself and so many others out there face on the daily. With everything I do, I try so hard to at least game daily. Gaming is my relaxation, my sanctuary, my 'me time'. But there are times when all I get a chance to do it switch on Animal Crossing: New Leaf and catch some fish, then it's off to bed I go here in the real world.
Why can't life be like the video games, and instead of me having all of these jobs to make money, I could just go and cut some patches of grass or break some pots or battle some monsters and BOOM! Money, money everywhere!
Hey...I can dream, right?

Random Rambles & Musings: Positivity Vs. Negativity

This blog won't have a ton of gaming in it. This is basically a "just-for-the-hell-of-it" type blog post. I really want & need to post a lot more, but with my life duties sometimes getting in the way, it's pretty difficult. Who knew I had set my life's difficulty level that high? Haha! 

Anyways... Just some random thoughts. I love my life, I do, but there are always things we can improve upon. For example, I tend to get really stressed out really easily for absolutely no valid reason. Being stressed leads to bouts of depression, & then that in turn leads to me over-thinking everything, & revisiting things of my past that are still pretty painful to look back on. I am learning to change all of that. Life is too short to be worried all the time. Everything happens for a reason, & in the end, it'll all work out how the Universe has so planned. I'm taking baby steps, but I'm getting there. Just keep your focus on the positive.
There are so many people nowadays that pity themselves too much. They in turn make their lives worse unknowingly. If they could just drop the b.s., & just be thankful they are alive & breathing, all would get better for them. If you put out negativity, than you shall receive negativity. Put out positivity, receive positivity in return. That's just how it works guys & gals. Seriously, think about it, uncloud your mind, open up and REALLY think about it. When you think negative thoughts, those will only lead to more negative thoughts. Same with positive thoughts. Plain & simple.

Another thing, positvity & negativity are contagious. If you're negative towards someone, or you act negatively in front of someone, they will react negatively as well. It's a vicious cycle, & I honestly think that's why this world we live in is so cruel & cold nowadays. I'm not a psychologist or therapist or anything of the sort, though I have played this part to many a friend & family member over the years. I am just thinking logically. 

Find the joys in the little things in life...make yourself happy. Life is what you make it to be. You want a good life, go out & make it so! You want happiness? Well, dammit, go out & find it! Sitting in a darkened room won't help you find a damn thing, trust me, I speak from experience. I'm not here to tell you what to do, but to let people out there know that you always have a choice in how your life is lived. The only person who can change it though, is you.

I want more happiness in this world, less sadness & depression. Less people thinking they are nothing, thus resorting to suicide as their last resort. It should not be a last resort, nor any resort! Suicide is not an answer. I've had suicidal thoughts in the past, I'm not going to lie. I've had thoughts when things were going bad, I would think "Perhaps if I were gone, everything would be better". No. Nope. Nuh-uh. Don't think that ever. Your death will never be an answer for anything, other than a cowardly way out of a messed-up situation, that could probably be easily fixed if looked at from a different perspective.

In the end, just know you are never alone if you are feeling this way, or have ever felt this way. Know that you can heal yourself, & make your life better. I'm working towards that goal of less worries, less anxiety, less depression...& if I can do it, I'm pretty sure you can do it too. If anyone out there is actually reading this, thank you. & know that if you need someone to help you sort through whatever it is you're going through in order to make your life better, comment below. I'll answer & help in any way I can. Because everybody needs someone to lean on from time to time. :)

Adventures of a Gamer-Geek in a Mommy's World

 Since I was a child, I was a gamer. While most 8-9 year olds were playing with Barbie and Ken, I was busy mastering Legend of Zelda and beating the living hell outta Mother Brain on Super Metroid. All my best memories growing up, sadly, are revolved around my gaming. It defined me, and made me who I am today. Quite a few years later, and now I'm the proud mommy of two very young lil' girls. This gamer geek misses her gaming time!

 I remember back in the day, pulling all nighters just because I didn't want to turn off Ocarina of Time. Now, I have a bedtime. Endless hours of gaming? Well, my hours of gaming are endless, so to speak...But most of that game's time is spend on pause due to me being super-mommy and feeding, bathing and raising two precious babies. And in no way am I complaining...I love my daughters more than any game. I just miss the feeling of getting lost in another world, putting yourself in a universe unlike anything you could ever imagine. But I get my chances from time to time...such as the girls' nap times, or after they've gone to bed, or that rare case when they're actually enjoying each others' company and playing together. Fact is, you can still be the greatest mommy ever, and still keep up with your gamer geek status. I'd go crazy if it weren't for my games. While some moms think they need to get away from their kids and go out drinking and dancing, that's all fine and dandy FOR THOSE MOTHERS. As for me, I'm much too happy to sit back with good music, and a great game in immerse myself in. Sit and play, relax, and drift away into a new world that has been waiting to welcome me with open arms ever since I left GameStop after my purchase.

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Nostalgia Gaming

Earlier I was playing around on my new desktop computer to see what this baby was capable of, when I came across something incredible—Websites to play old school GameBoy games & NES games!!! Gameboy games: www.playr.org & the NES games: www.NESForever.com OMG! I could hardly contain my excitement. I went right into searching for games I cherished as a child…the first few being all the Legend of Zelda games for the GameBoy…I found Oracle of Ages, Oracle of Seasons, & Link’s Awakening. Soon after I started on NESForever.com…I was determined to find a game I played as a child and never got to complete. The name of the game is Crystalis…An RPG, in the realms of Final Fantasy meets Legend of Zelda, the old-school ones of course. And BAM! There it was… I was so happy to have found this game after so many years. I kid you not, I had tears in my eyes!!! Seriously! That game meant a lot to me as a child, and playing it…well, just took me to a happier plane of existence. Like to play games online? Love old-school Nintendo games? I strongly recommend these websites to you…I now am in search of one similar to these, but for SNES, or Super Nintendo.

Playing Through tLoZ: Majora's Mask All Over Again Pt. 1

 So recently I've decided to play through The Legend of Zelda: Majora's Mask all over again. The last time I played through the game and completed it, I was about 12 or 13 years old, and now I'm 25. Just recently I downloaded the game onto my Wii purchased with points I earned from the Nintendo Club. I started a game on it a few days back, and I was flooded with memories from my previous play-through. But I was shocked to realize that there were many things I had forgotten. So it's like I'm playing anew all over again!
 The beginning was fairly easy. You're stuck in the town as a Deku scrub until you can pass various trials to leave the town. And from there, you're off to the Southern Swamp to conquer the first main temple. There you have to clear an innocent monkey's name, who was accused of kidnapping the Deku Princess. Upon completing the swamp level, you save the Princess.
 I just recently completed the mountain area, where you meet the Gorons and take on the role of their local hero, Darmani. Now, that level I had completely forgotten how to play. It had been so long, I didn't remember most of it at all. I'm not going to lie, it took me a while to finish that level...I just went in circles over and over again, until finally I figured it all out. Once I figured it out, it was like a face-palm moment... It was like "Well...duh...of coarse THAT was what I was supposed to do!!!"
 The place I left off on was recovering my horse, Epona, from Romani Ranch, and now it's off to the ocean, to complete that stage all within a matter of three days. I had forgotten how nerve-racking the whole "Three Days" was. Luckily, I remembered that if you play the Song of Time backwards, it slows the current flow of time. A very handy tool in this game.
 I have come across a few people that didn't really care for this game out of all the Legend of Zelda games, but personally, I enjoy it. It's so challenging, and difficult, it has a totally other element that the other games don't have: A time frame of 72 hours to complete certain tasks. Brilliant.
 This is part one of a series of blogs about my 'Re-journey' through this game. As I play through so far, I'll create another blog. Peace, Love, & Video Games, all! <3

Gamer Mom Probs

 I'm feeling the itch to game as of late. Hopefully I can satisfy this need soon. Having two little ones makes it extremely hard to play a video game.
 When I play a video game, I have to submerse myself completely in whatever universe I may be playing in at that moment. Maybe I need to start waking up earlier in order to be able to get some gaming in before the kids wake up, hahaha! In all seriousness though...I need to game! I feel like a drug addict going through withdrawls...it's sad, and almost...pathetic ;_;.
 I need to finish Skyrim...I need to finish Skyward Sword...there are so many I NEED to finish...

 One day...

Well, gamer-rant over...Expect a blog coming up for my trip to Dallas, Tx Comic Con Fan Days!!! :D

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Another day in the life of me

What a chill day today. Worked on the computer for a while, while enjoying a delicious cup of coffee. I managed to create and edit my profile for the website I'm going to begin working on. Recently, I was recruited to write for the gamer website, GamingPrecision.com. The creator of the site found my blog posts on 1up.com (copies of the same blogs I post on here), and liked how I write and represent gaming. I'm happy to say I'm working for this site. It's a good site, lots of info and reviews to the popular games out there. Hopefully from here I can gain industry experience, because it's my dream to one day work for a major gaming site and/or magazine, or even one of the major gaming labels or companies (Nintendo is my goal, but that's a long shot) So wish me luck readers...just know, with hard work, you can accomplish anything!
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Green Tea & Zelda!

So today I'm thinking of attempting my Zelda gaming marathon once again. Thinking I'll play some more of A Link to the Past, then some Majora's Mask, Twilight Princess, and finally, the completion of Skyward Sword once my dear hubby comes home from work (because he wants to see the ending). So today will be a day of green tea drinking and infinite Zelda game-play, of course with the break every now and then to feed my precious babies <3 Today...will be a good day.
 And at the same time I feel the urge to forgo my Wii games, and cheat on it with my xbox360 and give some more of my life away to Skyrim. I could dwell in that world forever...BUT! Zelda needs my attention today...Link needs me to make him the Hero of Time all over again.

So...Anime, Anyone?

I love to watch anime. The worlds they create intrigue me, and run wild with imagination! It's always been a dream of mine to write or do animation for an anime company. To work for FUNimation has been my dream for quite some years now. I've been watching a lot more anime than usual as of late. All thanks to Netflix!!! Currently watching Fruits Basket, Spice and Wolf, and High School of the Dead. Each one VERY different, each one incredibly awesome. I've been contemplating watching Deadman Wonderland, but still iffy on it. And most likely I will watch SoulEater in it's entirety for the 3rd time...I just love that anime so much!

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Skyrim/DawnGuard review

   Skyrim…? SKYRIM!!! First off, Bethesda, being the incredible company that it is, has graced us with their presence in the past with many great games. One of my personal favorite series of games from them being the Elder Scrolls. I've played a few of the previous games, Oblivion being one of them, but by far, Skyrim is my favorite. When I feel like taking a break, just merely walking around in the game, taking in the breath-taking landscapes in the game are enough to let me escape from the ‘real world‘ for a few moments, and submerge me into the great world known as Skyrim.
   Just recently I downloaded DawnGuard, the first of the downloadable content to be released for the game. I’ve began the mission, and so far, I am not disappointed! Best Microsoft points I’ve spent. It adds a whole other story line, and it is a great one at that. Though I am not completely finished with the mission, I am in awe over it.
   In this new mission, you are introduced to a different species of vampires, that are a lot stronger than the regular vamps you’ve faced in the past on Skyrim. They are ruled by the vampire lord, Harkon. It’s his passion to see the world shrouded in eternal darkness. And come to find out, that can be accomplished by his obtaining certain Elder Scrolls. First, you will meet the DawnGuard, the small group of  people in Skyrim that are out to stop Harkon from having his dream of eclipsing the sun forever come true. They give you a mission that leads you finally to Harkon, the vampire lord. Upon first meeting Harkon, you are faced with the choice to become a vampire lord like him, or face his wrath if you choose to stay in alligance with the dawnguard. I myself chose to become a vampire lord, and let me tell you, it is fun! Hovering above the ground, resurrecting the dead to serve under you, and feeding off the living, what more could a fan of vampires ask for?
    Later on you discover a whole new side of Skyrim, the Soul Cairn. Think of it as the underworld of Skyrim, where all souls retreat after they’ve met their demise. The world itself is beautiful in a cryptic and dark way, but nonetheless, still quite beautiful. And if you can find them, you come across a few side missions while in the Soul Cairn. One in particular that upon completing, you gain a new conjuration, a skeletal horse, engulfed in blue flames named Arvak. You can summon him at anytime, and upon doing so, you have a new means of traveling across the vast land. It’s a lot faster than traveling by foot. Now, if you’ve just recently purchased this game, and haven’t leveled up too much, keep in mind that even though you’ve downloaded the DawnGuard expansion, you cannot begin the mission till you’ve reached at least a level 10.
   And that’s that. Skyrim is a great game for those who love a good time-consuming rpg, The graphics, the story, the gameplay…all of it is enjoyable for most gamers. I’d highly recommend this game to any adventure/rpg gamer who wishes for a game that upon total completion, will take about 150-300 hours. Hour of your life, well spent.
 

The Legend of Zelda

Greatest series from Nintendo in my opinion. A game I grew up with, and feel it grew up with me. There's never been another series that's had the impact TLoZ has had on me. I've played all the games from the series, except the the Philip's CDi ones (which pretty much all Zelda fans hardly recognize as actual TLoZ games). To pick a favorite would be like picking a favorite child: You just can't choose. It feels wrong to have to choose! Most challenging I would have to say goes to Majora's mask. Given the fact of having to complete all these things in three days is quite nerve-racking...but oh so much fun. Most memorable would have to be Ocarina of Time. Incredible story, such depth and beauty. And each level more challenging than the last. Brilliant. And a lot of people didn't care much for Wind Waker, but I thought it was quite charming. Regardless of the chartoon-ish like graphics, it was still a good game. Least favorites would have to be the ones created for the Nintendo DS, Phantom Hourglass and Spirit Tracks. They had their moments, but not my two favorites from the series. And I cannot say enough about Twilight Princess...that game, to this day, I will play over and over again. Beautifully done, from graphics to storyline. Sounds strange to say,but that game truely impacted me greatly. I smile just thinking about playing it! I own it for both the Wii and the GameCube. Both formats great in my opinion. And last, but most certainly not least, Skyward Sword. I am in the final battle as we speak. The grandiose face-off against the evil Demise. This game is so fantastic, I almost cannot bring myself to finish it! I just don't ever want this adventure to end...tho I know it must be done sooner than not. I can't wait until the next TLoZ game is released, both for the WiiU, or the 3DS. Either way, I'm getting them all! And the WiiU is as good as mine by next year *fingers crossed*. So, my gamer-dears...what is YOUR favorite TLoZ game?? Which one meant the most to YOU?? Which had the best story/graphics/etc?? Please share, I am all ears. /)^3^(\