Thursday, December 5, 2013
My video games are my way of winding down and relaxing, so in essence, I have not even had time to relax. My breaks happen when I go to bed at night, lol! Hey, but that's the life of a dedicated mother/housewife/journalist/writer/craftmaker...It's not a life for everyone, but I think it's just right for me. Even though I hardly have time for myself or the things that bring me joy, it's worth it to see that I can bring joy to others in all of the works I do. And that in itself, humbles me.
Tuesday, November 19, 2013
But the time has come, and we need extra income. I work for my websites, and get some pay from there, but it just isn't enough. So to top that off, I make sculptures and jewelry, and I knit and crochet hats and scarfs. Oh, and on top of that, I now babysit four or so times a week. I like making money, and I like being able to do it from the comfort of my home, but it's beginning to feel as if I am doing too much. I even went yesterday, and talked to my apartment manager about possibly cleaning the property daily and doing other odds and ends here and there for yet another job. Granted, this one wouldn't put money in my pocket, but it will decrease my rent, so it works out either way.
I'm the type of person that won't say no to a good opportunity, even if I have a ton of stuff on my plate already. In the future, I may even possibly be in charge of a couple websites. Awesome sauce, more money for my family and bills, but that results in a stressed and tired Nightingale. But you know what, one must do what they have to do. That's our duty in life. Especially me being a mother, I have that instinct to go and do everything I can to ensure my family is okay financially and so on, even though I know I'm doing too much, and spreading myself way too thin.
How many of you out there feel this way? You know you're doing way too much, but you keep on at it with a smile on your face even though you're beyond stressed and slowly losing your mind?
And yes, I know, this is a gamer mommy blog, but sometimes I just want to talk about the day to day struggles that I myself and so many others out there face on the daily. With everything I do, I try so hard to at least game daily. Gaming is my relaxation, my sanctuary, my 'me time'. But there are times when all I get a chance to do it switch on Animal Crossing: New Leaf and catch some fish, then it's off to bed I go here in the real world.
Why can't life be like the video games, and instead of me having all of these jobs to make money, I could just go and cut some patches of grass or break some pots or battle some monsters and BOOM! Money, money everywhere!
Hey...I can dream, right?
Friday, October 11, 2013
Anyways... Just some random thoughts. I love my life, I do, but there are always things we can improve upon. For example, I tend to get really stressed out really easily for absolutely no valid reason. Being stressed leads to bouts of depression, & then that in turn leads to me over-thinking everything, & revisiting things of my past that are still pretty painful to look back on. I am learning to change all of that. Life is too short to be worried all the time. Everything happens for a reason, & in the end, it'll all work out how the Universe has so planned. I'm taking baby steps, but I'm getting there. Just keep your focus on the positive.
There are so many people nowadays that pity themselves too much. They in turn make their lives worse unknowingly. If they could just drop the b.s., & just be thankful they are alive & breathing, all would get better for them. If you put out negativity, than you shall receive negativity. Put out positivity, receive positivity in return. That's just how it works guys & gals. Seriously, think about it, uncloud your mind, open up and REALLY think about it. When you think negative thoughts, those will only lead to more negative thoughts. Same with positive thoughts. Plain & simple.
Another thing, positvity & negativity are contagious. If you're negative towards someone, or you act negatively in front of someone, they will react negatively as well. It's a vicious cycle, & I honestly think that's why this world we live in is so cruel & cold nowadays. I'm not a psychologist or therapist or anything of the sort, though I have played this part to many a friend & family member over the years. I am just thinking logically.
Find the joys in the little things in life...make yourself happy. Life is what you make it to be. You want a good life, go out & make it so! You want happiness? Well, dammit, go out & find it! Sitting in a darkened room won't help you find a damn thing, trust me, I speak from experience. I'm not here to tell you what to do, but to let people out there know that you always have a choice in how your life is lived. The only person who can change it though, is you.
I want more happiness in this world, less sadness & depression. Less people thinking they are nothing, thus resorting to suicide as their last resort. It should not be a last resort, nor any resort! Suicide is not an answer. I've had suicidal thoughts in the past, I'm not going to lie. I've had thoughts when things were going bad, I would think "Perhaps if I were gone, everything would be better". No. Nope. Nuh-uh. Don't think that ever. Your death will never be an answer for anything, other than a cowardly way out of a messed-up situation, that could probably be easily fixed if looked at from a different perspective.
In the end, just know you are never alone if you are feeling this way, or have ever felt this way. Know that you can heal yourself, & make your life better. I'm working towards that goal of less worries, less anxiety, less depression...& if I can do it, I'm pretty sure you can do it too. If anyone out there is actually reading this, thank you. & know that if you need someone to help you sort through whatever it is you're going through in order to make your life better, comment below. I'll answer & help in any way I can. Because everybody needs someone to lean on from time to time. :)
Wednesday, September 11, 2013
I’m feeling rather nostalgic today. Just sitting back and thinking about where video games has taken me in life, where it all started, and to where I am now. It’s been quite a journey, I must say.
I remember being a mere child and having my big brother, who was 16 years older than I, hand me his Sega Game Gear for the very first time. It was the first time I ever played Sonic the Hedgehog. I was maybe every bit of seven years old if I was lucky. And I remember that later on, when my big brother went back to the Army from his vacation, he gave me that handheld gaming system. My father thought I was too young for it, and took it away…I remember that being that saddest day ever. A cherished gift from my bubba, something that one day would prove to be a huge impact on my life, taken from me. Fortunately for me, I got it back in a few years.
When I was about eight years old or so, my parents found me a Sega Master System at a yard sale. I had very few games for it, the only ones I remember were two Where in the World is Carmen Sandiego games, some helicopter game that I could never beat, and Alex the Kidd in Shinobi World, the one that was my very favorite.
Later on, my Sega Master System was sold for me to get an NES, a used one of course. My father didn’t think I needed more than one console at a time. Boy, was he ever wrong! Anyways, with that system we got three games with it, The Legend of Zelda, Super Mario Bros. 2, and another I just cannot seem to remember. I spent all of my time on SMB 2 and most of all, The Legend of Zelda. I loved it, it brought me happiness like nothing else in this world could. Later on, I discovered the Super Nintendo through my aunt who got me hooked on The Legend of Zelda: A Link to the Past. I loved it so much, she let me borrow her own console and take it home to play. I just had to have my own. Luckily for me, I was allowed to keep my NES along with the used SNES we found. This was only due to one of the component cables being gone, so one couldn’t work without the other with the way we had it rigged. I had a total of about 40-50 games for each system. I had found games here and there at flea markets and garage sales, and I had grown quite the collection near the end.
My brother bought me an N64 for Christmas along with Super Mario 64, a game that I still love and cherish to this day. I had all three Nintendo systems at the same time, I was one happy panda! And then one day Nintendo released the GameCube. I saw all of these new games releasing for it, and I just had to continue my gaming venture with that system. My father made a deal with me that if he could sell both my NES and my SNES, he would buy me the GameCube. Looking back at it today, I regret selling my beloved systems, but I had to do so for my advancement in this gaming journey of mine. I had several Resident Evil titles for it back then, to this day I own all of them that were ever made for the GameCube, aside from Code Veronica…that one is difficult to come by. My two favorite games for it had to be Legend of Zelda: Wind Waker, and Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess. Now, I don not have my original GameCube, but I did recently acquire a new one. And yes, I still play the hell outta it!
As of now, I have a Nintendo, Wii U, Wii, GameCube, Sony PS3, Sony PSP Go, and an Xbox 360. I love all of my systems, for they house a multitude of games I love. I do not regret my gaming history. It has made me who I am. I believe by playing puzzle games when I was young has helped to develop problem-solving skills over the years, and has kept my mind working and on it’s toes.
Not only all that, but also in the hardest of times, video games were there to take me away from this world, and place me in theirs for just a brief while, which was enough for me. A lot of people don’t understand when adults are addicted to video games and play them all the time. And also, these same people know not what has happened in said person’s life to make them the gamer they are today. For me, when time’s got hard and depression decided to pay me many visits, I grabbed a controller and played until I couldn’t play anymore. It saved me from possibly doing something stupid. It distracted me from whatever pain I was feeling, and put everything into perspective.
Now that I’m a mother, I don’t hold back my kids from playing video games (age appropriate games, mind you). It feels more gratifying then you could ever know to place a controller in your lil’ one’s hand and have them share in something you cherished as a child. You give a little piece of yourself to them, passing on the happiness that game brought to you, you share with them that light that lit up your darkest of days.
All of this and more is why I am PROUD to be called a gamer. I am now, and I forever will be. And so will my kids <3
Peace, Love & Video Games, all!
Sunday, July 28, 2013
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
Thursday, May 23, 2013
There was a time back when I worked at the local GameStop, about 5 or so years back. When I took the job I was taught all about game ratings and how they were similar to that of the rating system used for movies. "E" meaning "Everyone", just like "G" in the movie ratings, "T" for "Teen", similar to that of "PG-13" in the movies, and finally "M", meaning "Mature", for no one under the age of 18, same as "R" in the movies. As a GameStop employee, it was my job to keep kids from buying games that were rated outside of their age group. Say a 12 year old wants an M-rated video game, such Grand Theft Auto, I cannot legally sell it to him without a parent or guardian okaying me to sell it to their child. While working there at GameStop, I came across a multitude of people. Most of them children. Some of them had parents who had no idea about the rating system, and thanked me for informing them on it, while others cussed me out for making their child come get them out of their comfy cars just to okay that I sell them a game, regardless of the game's rating. You better believe that for every child that came up wanting a mature rated game, I busted out our nifty little rating paper, showing the different ratings and why they are rated the way they are. It astounded me how many mothers came in and still allowed their child a game, even after I pointed out that the game contained violence, blood, sex, drugs and whatever else that game may have contained. And people wonder what is wrong with today's youth... tsk, tsk, tsk...
The reason I bring all of this up today is what I witnessed at another GameStop in my town. While standing in line to buy some games, there was a woman in front of us with a young boy who looked to be about 11 if he was lucky. The little boy was talking about the new Call of Duty game to come out this year, Call of Duty: Ghosts, and the employee waiting on them asked if they'd like to reserve it. **Okay, quick break right here: Being that he was a GameStop employee just as I was those years back, he should know about the rating system and KNOW that the new Call of Duty is a MATURE RATED GAME! He should not have even offered it as a reserve to the child, but then again, people nowadays have no moral value whatsoever -_-** The little boy full of excitement exclaimed "Yes!" The mother then okayed it. As I stood there listening and expressing my feelings to my husband about little kids playing those types of games, my husband pointed at the counter where the lady was paying and said, "Well look, she's buying him Grand Theft Auto right now!" I almost lost it. Why would any parent allow their kids to play these games?! I have nothing against these games, just the fact that they ARE NOT FOR CHILDREN. Plain and simple. Back when I worked at GameStop, I wasn't yet a parent as I am now, and even then had strong feelings against children playing M-rated games...Imagine how I am now that I have two kids of my own! Mama-bear instincts assemble!
But in all seriousness, I grow tired of today's media and news blaming video games for violence. Perhaps if parents ACTUALLY parented and didn't allow their children to play games they shouldn't, perhaps our children wouldn't be as messed up as they are nowadays. It all boils down to parents giving their kids anything and everything they want to keep them outta the parents' hair, regardless of what these things may be. Children are impressionable, playing games with a M-rating is NOT okay, people! They are rated for a reason... I can guarantee you, you will never see either one of my girls playing GTA or COD until they are the right age to play such games. That's me being a parent, and doing whatever I can do possible to protect my children. I suggest other parents do the same.
Rant End...Now I feel a bit better getting that off of my chest. It just irks me how some people can be so careless when it comes to their kids. Well, that's the world nowadays, folks. It can be a sad, sad thing at times.